It made me cry :')

love 2054 miles away

I saw this video at zee's wall and I watch it. She said that she cried right after she watch it, I thought it won't affect anything to me but belive it or not, I cried too. They're so sweet. I never thought that guy like him exist. I do wish that my boyfriend will be like him. No more jerks, I'm tired with all those kind of guys. I hope I'll meet the right one. And I'm sorry for not updating my blog, I've no idea. So PMR is on october and trials is on august, which I have one more month to revise all the past year chapters. I hope, I can pass all of it. I hope my friends will pass their test and staright a's will be in their hands :) InsyaAllah. I'm done with hafazan, folios etc. Alhamdulillah. Now, the only thing I need to do is study. Okay thats all for now. I'll post one more video which is kinda sweet too. It made me cry. Unbelievable? Lol I know right. Ok if you watched that video already, I bet you're crying now. If you're not, means you're heartless. No offense haha. By the way thanks for reading.

June sucks

I didn't update my blog for a very looong time. Theres alot of things that happen though, It doesn't turn out like what i wanted it to be. I can't blame anyone for it, the only thing I can do now is blame myself for trusting people easily. I shouldn't put my hopes to high. Put all the blame on me. One more bad news, kak yanti's going back to Indonesia soon. Can you imagine how bored will I be when she's gone? Everyones not around. Even my mom and my brother. Like what I said, people start to leave, slowly..one by one without me realizing it. But now, I do. Okay, forget about that. I don't wanna cry, nothing can change the past. I just need to move on thats all. PMR is around the corner, same goes to the trials. These shits are stressing me out, I need to get out of it. My friends aren't here, how I wish they live nearby so that I can study in the same school as they are. Can't wait for next year. I just need put everything aside and study. I made it sound so easy right? How I wish it is. Okay, I hope things will be better on July. If it remains the same, I'd rather jump off the cliff seriously. Its not hard for me to pretend that life's awesome, acting is easy. But to feel the happiness, it ain't that easy. I don't feel like answering questions bout me and arsyad again and again and all over again. It reminds me of it and you guys should just gimmie some space. Its over and I don't wanna think about it. He's happy and I can be happy too so that its even.

still awake

Its 7.58am I didn't sleep yet, and suprisingly, Im not sleepy at all. I tweet, yawn, eat some sweet and snacks, lie down forawhile, check my facebook, yawn again and I end up sitting infront of the laptop updating something at my blog because I still can't sleep. Such a failure D: Eye bags make me look like a zombie, Im weak and I feel a lil bit groggy right now, shit. Ahh, this is not good, I feel sick. Gonna get some sleep and enough rest, I have to because I'm going out on Wednesday, I don't wanna miss anything, plus I really really wanna meet them, Goshh, I miss them. Okay done talking, I should sleeeeep. Bye, have a nice day! xx

Im exciteeeed

Gonna watch Insidious with my girlfriends this Wednesday! I heard that this movie is so fucking scary, can't wait, it'll be super fun because my bestfriends will be there. I'll upload lots of pictures, I will, thats a muust! I miss my bestfriends badly, so I'll spend one whoole day with them. Imma happy child now, because I'm so excited to meet them. Okay its 4.56am now, I'm still awake and I'm not sleepy at all. I think I should should knock my head till I die -.- Ok, thats it, I'll just tweet till I sleep! Good night and sleep tight! xx