just ignore

im just afraid of the past, i just hate my life so much till nothing can't make me happy anymore. should i repeat, NOTHING. i'm just being honest. everyone can make me smile, laugh or whatsoever. but still i'll never ever love my life. why should i lie bout this kind of stuff. i know you'll say that im not in a good mood now thats why i post this in my blog. well you're wrong. i hate my life and something just happen today. and i hate it even more than i used to. i kept wondering why this things happen to me. maybe i should be grateful, well i am but i just can't stop myself from hating it. i should focus more on studies because i know that all this stuff will just screw things up right