2nd april

this saturday is my brother's birthday, maybe i'll bake a cake for him. how i wish i can meet zhafri this week, sadly i can't because my family and i are going to celebrate my brother's birthday this saturday. by the way, my brother's gonna be 26, wow he's ooold. may Allah bless you abang. lots of love :)

good night

just done with all the homeworks that teacher gave me, gotta sleep now. my mom will kill me if she know that i'm still awake. she can't stop herself from blabbering and i know its for my own good. and i just loooove her for that. nah, nothing much to talk about. so,

GOOD NIGHT, SWEET DREAMS

boredom

im listening to what are words and i can't stop myself from clicking the play button. everyone's busy today and i'll just do the things that i usually do everyday. i miss my friends, boyfriend, cousins, my grandfather and my dad :') i just wish that they're here with me all the time. i love them, all of them live far away from me. especially my grandfather and my dad :') if all of them are here with me now, i'll be the happiest girl in the universe, no doubt. knowing that they're happy is enough. assalamualaikum

7.02 am

good morning, i didn't sleep yet. 

i keep yawning since just now. maybe i should sleep now. oh crap, eye bags -.-

  sweet dreams 

What Are Words

i cried after i watch this video, and the lyrics :'( after what had happened to his wife, he still love her with his whole heart. he's my idol :')




Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see.
Every single promise I'll keep
Cuz' what kind of guy would I be 
If i were to leave when you need me most


What are words
If you really don't mean them 
When you say them
When are words 
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, they never go away
They live on, even when were gone


And i know a angle was sent
Just for me And I know I'm meant
To be where I am
And I'm gonna be 
Standing right beside her tonight
And i'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If really don't mean them 
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, they never go away
They live on
even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go , I'll be there
And i'm gonna be there forever more
Every single promise i'll keep
Cuz' what kind of guy would i be
If i were to leave when you need most
I'm forvever keepin' my angel close

Allah is everything

you told us before that you don't believe in God and mosque is hell. come on, you're wearing hijab. you're trying to embarrase yourself? you shouldn't say that kind of things. Allah created you, Allah created the world, everything. stop comparing yourself with anyone else. all of us hate you because of your attitude. you'll never ever change it? then stay away from us. just because of you, i went to the discipline room which i've never been there before since i was in primary school. maybe you'll say that i'm lame or whatsoever but thats me. i hate going to school now, its your fault bitch. don't you realize that you're just fooling yourself infront of everyone. and i think you'll never stop right. cursing all the teachers behind their back, discipline problems, thats not cool at all. you'll just drag all of us to the discipline room again. just now you told me that your mom cried because of you and you asked me whether you should say sorry or ignore right? you just pissed me of by asking me that shit. she's your mom, of course you should say sorry to her. without her, you're nothing. you're not 5 years old lah, you can think logically. if you don't even wanna believe in God, change your attitude, its your choice but the main thing is you should get the hell out of my life. 

lazy bum

what a boring day, nothing else to do besides than online-ing. i wish i could meet my friends today. maybe, later.

aloha kakou :)

bonjour

its 5.01am and im still awake. I should be dreaming now.

ohayou
means good morning in japanese
yoi yume o
means sweet dreams in japanese
gussuri oyasumi
means sleep tight in japanese
anata ga koishii desu, amar zhafri mazlan 
means i miss you in japanese.

look, how bored am i.

watashi wa ima nete kudasai
i should sleep now
sayonara
bye, well everyone knows that 

thanks a lot buddy

maybe its our fault for being so emotional, but we trust you. well maybe i know your attitude more than them but why can't you just show them your true colours. sooner or later, they'll know it right. behind me, what did you tell them? i know everything now. they're my friends too. why are you trying to separate us. without me, you won't even know her. we love you, we care about you, we trust you. thats not enough? how could you do this to us. and especially me, we've known each other for more than eight years. well maybe, we're not bestfriend. its too obvious that we're not. you address me as your bestfriend but you don't even mean it right? thanks alot buddy. we appreciate everything that you've done for us. stop acting like you don't even know whats happening. liar is always a liar. past is past right but why do you need to repeat it all over again. maybe you'll realize that friends are important. we're not a bunch of six year old kid, we can figure out whether you're a true friend or not. talking something bad behind of us, thats not cool. please, be yourself. and again, thanks

All About Him

Cause i'm all about him, him, him, him, him 
and he's all about me, me, me, me, me 
and we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang about nobody-e-e-e

Well, had him shootin for me like a ball team
Eevery guy was a knock out, Don King
But none of 'em had smarts, that's my thing
It's not enough to have balls, spalding, ha

One day at Starbucks, I ran into a guy wearin black chucks
He said "excuse me beautiful"
I said "aww shucks"
And then he asked "Well, aye, wanna grab lunch?"

Never ever met a guy so fly, 
got me hooked like apple pie
I think i'm fallin and i don't know why
But i won't fight these butterflies

Cause i'm all about him, him, him, him, him 
and he's all about me, me, me, me, me 
and we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang about nobody-e-e-e

And i swear what we have is just super cool
The way he's always in my head like a bluetooth
I got a text from him that said, come through
Told me that he wants to kick it, Kung Fu

Don't do nothin much at all
Jus we and his boys, watchin football
He asked for a kiss, so i gave him two
He said "well thank you baby"
I said "your welcome boo"

Never ever met a guy so fly, 
got me hooked like apple pie
I think i'm fallin and i don't know why
But i won't fight these butterflies

Cause i'm all about him, him, him, him, him 
and he's all about me, me, me, me, me 
and we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang about nobody-e-e-e

No i don't need no fancy cars
And i don't need no diamond rings
My baby is all i need and more
Cuz i don't need those extra things

It's not about you (oh-oh-oh-oh) (it's not about you) 
It's not about them (oh-oh-oh-oh) (it's not about them)
It's all about me (oh-oh-oh-oh) (it's all about me)
And it's all about him (oh-oh-oh-oh) (it's all about him)

yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
said it's all about him
yeah

Cause i'm all about him, him, him, him, him 
and he's all about me, me, me, me, me 
and we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang about nobody-e-e-e

(oh-oh-oh-oh) cuz i'm all about him
(oh-oh-oh-oh) cuz i'm all about him
(oh-oh-oh-oh) i'm all about him
(oh-oh-oh-oh) and we don't give a dang, dang, dang
(oh-oh-oh-oh) it's all about you
(oh-oh-oh-oh) it's all about you boy
(oh-oh-oh-oh) it's all about you
(oh-oh-oh-oh)

imma freak

i just came back from school, didn't even eat, shower or blablabla. there's no homework yeay! my mom and my brother went out soo yah im bored now. nothing to do, life's boring. i love to pretend that being alone is fun :/ thats just me, but i looove my life. everyone love their life, of course they do. come oooon life's brief candle right? it won't last forever. everybody knows that, so why can't we put all our problems aside and think bout our future and have fun with it like what i am doing now and there's a lot of things that keep making me smile although i'm sad, my friends and amar zhafri. can't wait to see them though. im just waiting for the right time, maybe during the school holidays. i miss all of you

webcaming with my brother, mohd faiz

from our face expression, its too obvious that we're bored. i'm the one who forced him to make all these kind of silly faces while we're webcaming. and yaaaaaaaah, its awesome!