June sucks

I didn't update my blog for a very looong time. Theres alot of things that happen though, It doesn't turn out like what i wanted it to be. I can't blame anyone for it, the only thing I can do now is blame myself for trusting people easily. I shouldn't put my hopes to high. Put all the blame on me. One more bad news, kak yanti's going back to Indonesia soon. Can you imagine how bored will I be when she's gone? Everyones not around. Even my mom and my brother. Like what I said, people start to leave, slowly..one by one without me realizing it. But now, I do. Okay, forget about that. I don't wanna cry, nothing can change the past. I just need to move on thats all. PMR is around the corner, same goes to the trials. These shits are stressing me out, I need to get out of it. My friends aren't here, how I wish they live nearby so that I can study in the same school as they are. Can't wait for next year. I just need put everything aside and study. I made it sound so easy right? How I wish it is. Okay, I hope things will be better on July. If it remains the same, I'd rather jump off the cliff seriously. Its not hard for me to pretend that life's awesome, acting is easy. But to feel the happiness, it ain't that easy. I don't feel like answering questions bout me and arsyad again and again and all over again. It reminds me of it and you guys should just gimmie some space. Its over and I don't wanna think about it. He's happy and I can be happy too so that its even.